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Scully Says�
A Collection of Voiceovers by Gillian Anderson
In the six seasons that The X-Files has been on, we rarely hear Gillian Anderson's voice in a Scully voiceover. However, Dana Scully's seldom voiceovers are delivered like poetry and usually a declaration of love and purpose. Here I have compiled some of the beautiful words that she has said.
*Note* This page is a continuos piece of work. It will be updated regularly as I get your e-mails, suggestions, and stuff that I have missed. I will also add more as the season progresses.
Momento Mori
For the first time, I feel time like a heartbeat. The seconds pumping in my breasts like a reckoning. The numinous mysteries that once seemed so distant and unreal, threatening clarity, and the presence of truth entertained not in youth but only in its passage. I feel these words as if their meaning were weight being lifted from me. Knowing that you will read them and share my burden as I have come to trust no other. That you should come to know my heart and look into it finding there the memory and experience that belong to you�that are you, is a comfort to me now as I feel the tethers loose, and the prospects darken for the continuance of a journey that began not so long ago, and that began again with a faith shaken and strengthened by you beliefs. If not for which, I might never have been so strong now, as I cross to face you, and look at you in complete, hoping that you will forgive me for not making the rest of the journey with you.
In med. school , I learned that cancer arrives in the body unannounced, a dark stranger who takes up residence, turning its new home against itself. This is the evil of cancer, that it starts as an invader but soon becomes one with the invaded. Forcing you to destroy it, but only at the risk of destroying yourself. It is science's demon possession. My treatment: science's attempted exorcism. Mulder, I hope that in these terms you might know it and know me. And accept this stranger that so many recognize but cannot completely cast out. And if the darkness should have swallowed me as you read this you must never think that there was the possibility of some secret intervention, something you might have done. I know we've traveled far together. This last distance must necessarily be traveled alone.
I have not written to you in the last twenty-four hours because my treatment has weakened my body as well as my soul. Mulder it is difficult to describe to you the fear of facing an enemy which I can neither conquer nor escape. Penny Northern has taken a downturn; I now look at her with a respect that can come only from one who is about to walk the same dark path. Seeing her I can't help but see myself in a month, or a year. I pray I have her courage to face this journey. Mulder I feel you close though I know you are now pursuing your own path. For that I am grateful, more than I could ever express. I need to know that you're out there if I'm ever going to see through this.
Emily
It begins where it ends� In nothingness. A nightmare born from deepest fears, coming to me unguarded. Whispering images unlocked from time and distance. A soul unbound - touched by others but never held. On a course charted by some unseen hand. The journey ahead promising no more than my past reflecting back upon me. Until at last, I reach the end. Facing a truth I can no longer deny. Alone, as ever.
Colony/End Game
Transfusions and an aggressive treatment with anti-viral agents have resulted in a steady but gradual improvement in Agent Mulder's condition. Blood tests have confirmed his exposure to the still unidentified retrovirus whose origin remains a mystery. The search team that found Agent Mulder has located neither the missing submarine nor the man he was looking for. Several aspects of this case remain unexplained, suggesting the possibility of paranormal phenomena... but I am convinced that to accept such conclusions is to abandon all hope of understanding the scientific events behind them. Many of the things I have seen have challenged my faith and my belief in an ordered universe... but this uncertainty has only strengthened my need to know, to understand, to apply reason to those things which seem to defy it. It was science that isolated the retrovirus Agent Mulder was exposed to, and science that allowed us to understand its behavior.
And ultimately, it was science that saved Agent Mulder's life.
Redux
I had no way to reach Agent Mulder to tell him what I had discovered - an unidentified microscopic life form whose very existence held the possibility of revelation. Was this organism extracted from the ice which had entombed the alien corpse, the germ cell that might give proof of extraterrestrial life, or was it just the opposite? The scientifically engineered creation of a chimera, an unclassified biological product designed to set up a hoax manufactured to create a false set of beliefs that have long driven Agent Mulder? I now begin to realize that the answer to this question might exist within the life form itself, biological proof of this connection to the cancer invading my body to a virus living inside this organism to which I had been exposed during my abduction three years ago.
The cruelest ironies are those consecrated by the passage of time, chanced and occasioned by shocking discovery. I had joined Agent Mulder because of my background in the medical sciences. My assignment was to question his work, to debunk his investigations, and rein him back into the FBI mainstream. Now, as fate would have it, I am calling on these very same skills to prove that he has been the target of a scheme orchestrated by someone close to us in the FBI. Someone we have trusted above all others. Involved in a highly organized plot to keep a dangerous secret from the light of day. I could only guess at what Agent Mulder may have uncovered on his own, what he may have found to confirm or deny what he has long held to be a conspiracy to control the public inquiry into government's knowledge and contact with an alien race or races. If he had hoped, as I do, to learn the identity of those who sought to destroy us, I had, with the discovery of this unidentified microorganism, what could amount to forensic evidence. Hard and undeniable genetic evidence of the connection between the conspirators and the cancer which has now metastasized in my bloodstream. I have few short hours to conduct these tests before I must appear before an FBI panel to explain myself. And as I am ready to lie to them about Agent Mulder, I am also ready to confront them with proof. Proof extracted from this tiny organism that could blow open a conspiracy of global consequence.
If my work with Agent Mulder has tested the foundation of my beliefs, science has been and continues to be my guiding light. Now I'm again relying on its familiar and systematic methods to arrive at a truth, a fact that might explain the fate that has befallen me. An investigation that began without, now turning within. Taking cellular material from the unidentified life form and isolating a virus contained within it, then matching the DNA from this virus with that which I believe has caused my cancer. I hope a picture will develop. A picture that might confirm my darkest suspicions about the source of this disease invading my body in hope of obtaining evidence that its cause is not without blame, even though its cure remains unknown. If science serves me to these ends... it is not lost on me that the tool which I've come to depend on absolutely cannot save or protect me... but only bring into focus the darkness that lies ahead.
This page is still coming along. I know that there are more touching Scully voiceovers that I have missed. PLEASE, PLEASE e-mail me at [email protected] to let me know.